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Sunday, December 30th, 2007
12:21 pm - I'm fast
92 words

Touchtyping online

It's been a rough week.

I may still get summa cum laude.

Jeff is amazing. As a boyfriend, he's totally boss. He's the cheese to my macaroni. (Yes, I saw Juno.)

current mood: calm

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Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
6:14 pm - Update
I'm happy. :-)

current mood: happy

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Monday, February 26th, 2007
8:43 pm - Chelsea 2 Arsenal 1
Such an amazing game...at least that's what I gather from what I've read. Unfortunately, it doesn't appear that any US networks aired the League Cup Final (what did I expect, though...this is America), so alas, I will not see what have probably been the most exciting 101 minutes of football so far this season, at least for Chelsea and Arsenal. Firstly, yay for JT being okay - and it was really nice to read about the quick response that both the players and the medical staff gave, realizing the gravity of the situation. Then, two sensational goals from Didi, strikes against the woodwork for Lampsy and Sheva, and what I can only assume was a very exciting 30 second brawl in the last few minutes of stoppage time. Say what you will about fighting on the pitch, but I absolutely love angry guys and watching fights. Maybe it's from taking karate for 9 years...maybe it's just part of my personality. Either way, it apparently was a very exciting final, well worth fans' time and money and travel...if only the goddamn US networks would air it.

On another subject, boo to my computer being sent away to be fixed AGAIN. It went away at this exact same time last year. Oh well, better for the problems to happen now, while it's still under warranty. Come June, I'm going to have to start treating it nicely for the first time in 3 years, because I'll have to pay to fix it if it's broken.

current mood: tired

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Sunday, February 4th, 2007
1:27 am - A list of sorts
Things currently high on my stress list:

- Everything

current mood: stressed

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Tuesday, January 30th, 2007
4:35 pm - I am so exhausted
So much reading. So. Much. Reading. And it's not even interesting, so I can't pay attention to it, and when I get quizzed on it I will fail.

I'm tired of thinking about the future. Internships, next year, graduation, a job (but only if I'm lucky, which I am not). I'm tired of the fact that my relationships with almost everyone are deteriorating, and it's probably my fault, because it always is, but I don't honestly know what I did to wreck things.

I just feel so overwhelmed by the fact that everything seems to be falling apart right now.

I can't even think of anything to write to make this entry worthwhile...Vermont was fun. School sucks. That's pretty much it.

current mood: depressed

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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
2:51 pm - >:(
As much as I hate this break and I wish it would be over, I know that when I go back to school, everything is still going to suck a lot. And even when the semester is over, I mean, what if I don't have an internship for the summer? Then I have to worry about finding a job or, worse, working at the Skyline for another summer, and then it's right back to school, with shitty senior year with it's late beginning and late ending and short Christmas break that will be made even shorter by the fact that I have to take a stupid wintersession class and then it's the last semester of my entire college career and then I have to graduate and pay back my loans and have a real job and it's just so much pressure and I can't handle it and I'm so fucking depressed right now it's not even funny.

And to top it all off, I'm freezing and I've been freezing for...ever since I got home in December and I'm pretty sure my electric blanket is dead because I used it too much.

Why don't things work out?

I seriously can't handle my life right now.

current mood: cold

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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
8:30 pm - new year?
Oh man this sucks.

I don't know where this came from, but it's kind of like a slap in the face from behind...painful and completely unexpected.


You know, it's funny, at this point last year I remember hoping that something happy would happen before 2007, and thinking, maybe this is it, maybe this one will be the year. Ha. I was so wrong.

So maybe 2007 will be the year.

Probably not.

Anyway, even if what I want to happen doesn't happen, a lot of other good things will:

- 21!! Finally! Only 309 days from right now!
- Kristen's wedding
- My parents' 25th anniversary

Okay so there's only 3 things there, but that's because those are the events that directly affect me...there are other good things that will happen.

I really hope 2007 is better than 2006.

current mood: distressed

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Monday, January 1st, 2007
4:39 pm - This weekend in a word...

Look for pictures on Facebook soon if you care...and Happy New Year everyone!!

current mood: happy

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Thursday, December 28th, 2006
4:49 pm - Bollocks. Feck.
Fucking shit. I am never taking another class with Conway. First he made me wait until the LAST POSSIBLE MOMENT to find out what my grades were in his two classes. Second, he ruined my chance at getting another 4.0. It wouldn't be so bad if he had told us exactly how we were being graded...but no, I got full points on practically every assignment I handed in and still only got an A-. If only he told us what else he was grading us on besides those 10 point assignments.

The highlighted portion, obviously, is what ruined my day yesterday.

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Monday, December 25th, 2006
4:25 pm - Johnny Depp bobble-head
So I got a little sloshed today with my mother's side of the family...but that's okay, because that's pretty much the only way I can stand them. God bless Pinot Grigio.

I always hate this part of the year. The days leading up to Christmas are so long, and then Christmas itself is over in the blink of an eye.

Well, it's off to the gym tomorrow to work off all this food that I ate and practically made myself sick with. But it's Christmas, and I told myself I won't get mad for eating a lot. (However, I often do not listen to myself.) Um, yeah, I'm definitely still a little buzzed, if you couldn't tell...

Hope your Christmases were as happy as mine. :-)

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8:23 am - 'Tis the season to be :-D
Happy Christmas, everyone.

current mood: happy

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Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
3:42 pm - Yay Robben!
A 10 month goal drought finally ended!! What a happy Christmas present! :-)

But Chelsea, seriously, stop scaring me like that...I mean, it's fucking Wigan...

current mood: happy

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Thursday, December 14th, 2006
9:48 pm - angry face
you're all just one big happy family, aren't you.

why am I not drunk right now? I wish I was.

wtf is up with this new LJ posting screen. it blows.

current mood: pissed off

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Tuesday, December 12th, 2006
7:48 pm - *stay sweetly numb*
The 35 days since I turned 20 have been the longest of my life. And I am not enjoying them at all. Even Thanksgiving wasn't that great.

I've done stupid thing after stupid thing and overreacted countless times, and yet I still don't seem to have learned from my mistakes. I feel like I would commit any of them again right away. I'm not finding it easier to deal with what's bothering me. I'm the same person I was when I was 18, which is awful, because it's been 2 years, and you would think I would grow or something. I wish I wasn't so immature about things. I wish I could accept that even though I haven't changed, everyone else has.

I am so frustrated with some people. I try to forget it because it's not worth it to be upset, but I can't stop dwelling on things. My brain is overactive.

I am unhappy with almost every aspect of my life right now. And I can't seem to get my thoughts straight.

I think I only got 2 A's this semester. :-(

current mood: cranky

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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
11:07 am - I've made a huge mistake.
And to borrow a line from Eurotrip, I'm never drinking again.

That's probably not true. But I'm never drinking that much again. Well, again, not true, but in the near future, I don't think I'll be drinking that much again.

Ugh. I can't believe myself.

It is possible I am still a little drunk.

current mood: drunk

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Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
11:30 am - Finally, I have 5 classes for next semester
Under the cut if you care to see my schedule...Collapse )
Kinda sucks cuz I'm never done before 5 on any day, but whatever. Marist is offering shitty classes next semester, especially for upper level comm. But at least I'll be done with my music minor. I'll probably fudge around with this during add/drop week in January anyway, but at least I've got 16 credits right now.

current mood: calm

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Monday, November 13th, 2006
11:29 pm - Soundtrack to my Life
Open iTunes, put it on shuffle, and then change the song for each of the songs to find your movie soundtrack...

Stolen from some people on Facebook.

1. Opening Credits: Escape from Hellview – cKy
2. Waking Up: Don’t Stop Believin’ - Journey
3. First Day At School: Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana
4. Falling In Love: La Tortura – Shakira ft. Alejandro Sanz
5. Fight Song: Born Like This – Three Days Grace
6. Breaking Up: Heavily Broken – The Veronicas
7. Prom: We Were Made For Each Other/You Can Breathe – Jack’s Mannequin
8. Life's OK: The Final Countdown - Europe
9. Mental Breakdown: Over and Over – Three Days Grace
10. Driving: Californication – Red Hot Chili Peppers
11. Flashback: Dressed to Kill – A New Found Glory
12. Getting Back Together: Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol
13. Wedding: Right Here - Staind
14. Birth of Child: Another Perfect Day – American Hi-Fi
15. Final Battle: Pain – Jimmy Eat World
16. Death Scene: Famous Last Words – My Chemical Romance
17. Funeral Song: Vendetta Red Cried Rape on Their Date With Destiny – Vendetta Red
18. End Credits: Remember the Name – Fort Minor

...this is never going to go away. :-\

current mood: discontent

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Friday, November 10th, 2006
11:09 am - 3 days later
20 is shaping up to be a pretty shiteous year.

I guess it's technically my 21st year...but you get the point.

current mood: melancholy

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Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
2:49 pm - It's only November?
I'm so ready for this semester to be over.

current mood: stressed

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Saturday, October 21st, 2006
1:12 pm - Cabin 2006!!!!
Last night we went to Heidi's grandfather's cabin again. It was great fun, just like the first time (although I think the first time was better...but this time definitely did not disappoint).

A cut for your FList...Collapse )

current mood: tired

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